true love??

is it true when we loved someone, we must let them go freely
and when they come back to us, it is called true love?
the question is..can we wait?
because waiting is hurting..

another thing
can we take the burden to see someone we love with another people?
can we smile for them? even its hurting us?
is it called true love when people we loved so much is with another people
and we still smile for them and say "i am happy for you"
could we do that?? could i do that?

well im in preparation for that situation..both situation
yes i love him so much..damn much..
but i still have to wait..
because he is not ready for that
but
what kind of guy he is?
when he know how much i loved him and yet he still said that he want to find a girlfriend
who am i actually? is my feeling doesnt count for him?
yet i just smile when he said that although it hurt so much.

what am i suppose to do now?
wait?
leave?
follow the flow?
sometime i wish his heart will opened for me..
but sometime i wish he could find a new girl
so i will move on from this spot..and carry on with my life.
gosh..so frustrated..
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